My day job is better than ever and I'm more on top and advanced than I ever have been. We all have problems in our lives but at work I act my normal-ish self. That being said some of my work colleagues have started to read this blog and began to see through my mask. To those of you, I say hello and thank you for your support.
I'm treading carefully because I hate upsetting or offending people but I should be clear. There are some people in my life who are pro-actively being nasty to myself and others. They 'bitch' behind people's backs and at times make blatant jokes about them in their presence. I have been asked how I cope and I used to block it out (mostly) but it is hurtful and recently it has felt more and more intense; particularly towards me.
OR am I being over-sensitive?
Is this my warped mind making the world a darker place than it is? Maybe things are fine. Why rock the boat?
OR am I right to be upset?
I've always bottled things and I shouldn't have to. But then... Why upset other people? Just suffer in silence and don't be burden, right?
Earlier this week the US suffered Mother's Day (it is a different day in the UK so there isn't a sudden rush at greeting card printing companies). Somewhere there is a information agency which seems to have recorded that my mother is dead and at first you might wonder where the profit could be made in knowing this. Fret no more!
A website called Heaven Address lets you light an online candle for your departed mother.
Dear Heaven Address.
I do not wish to light a candle. But I'll happily light a fucking bonfire with a drunk doll to represent my biological mother.
Talking of ghosts - we nearly lost our shit when a little girl decided to prank us in a nearby cave. But, in doing so, did we capture a real ghost by sheer luck?
Have a look below and let me know.
Thank you once again for reading my blog. It means the world to me - especially as my article on THE CALM ZONE has had over 750 views. Thank you xxx
“Unbeing dead isn't being alive.” ― E.E. Cummings— Matthew E Streuli (@mattstreuli) May 14, 2015