Today I spoke somethings through with someone, when I already knew the answer. I say I knew the answer, but for some reason it was hidden from me.
If I was counselling someone else I would of said it, so why didn't I say it?
It seems emotions can seriously hinder OR enhance your capacity, sucess and logic. I've derived this all from "you shouldn't apologise for how you feel".
Your never wrong for feeling how you do. You might feel it and then find out the cause (what you heard, or meant) was in error. In my case, I am certain she didn't what to imply what she did. Even so, its hard for my logical mind to change my emotional heart; I feel anger, hurt untrusted and oddly guilty.
I often wonder, after observing others, am I the only one who feels such guilt? if everyone else felt such guilt about upsetting people, even when they have right to feel hurt themselves, then wars and arguements wouldn't be.
I still feel anger and hurt and enormus guilt so I'd much rather crawl back and grovel, sacrificing how I feel and its cause so I can end the pain and make everyone else ok. But then, I could argue that that maybe if I'm the only one feeling great guilt over it, then it is unlikely they feel the same great pain I do. Surely if they felt the same pain they would feel the same guilt over upsetting someone? - Cause and effect?
Just by reading that last paragraph you can see why we shouldn't counsel ourselves.
For those of you who like to put everything in writing, so you can plan and think your feelings, then I reconmend contacting the email team of the Samaritans.
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Oh my blessed relief, I crave you. A tiny flinch and that combustion is released: a pool forms and with a wipe, I'm briefly fine. #poem
Your spelling is horrible, retard. You don't deserve a scarf party. And you look middle aged, "21 year old"
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